I get into these mental loops
where I take the time to reconnect with myself and my [larger-than-Roland] world
and all the while question whether I can afford to be taking the time
but *know* that it’s important, and that it’s what keeps me happy
but then wonder if I’m just a slacker who’s all talk and no action
and then I look at my work and think no, I’ve done some things I’m proud of, and others are in progress
and return to the reconnecting, but go through this same loop again
none of it is drastic, just kind of comes and goes in waves
taking time out to reconnect should probably happen regularly, no matter what, because burnout is no fun and after a while you just start spinning your wheels while trying to work, and not using time efficiently —
but the trouble is, overload-mode is sometimes my most productive time
but yes, it’s important to take the time regularly
although it doesn’t get me out of the loops: I’m a graduate student, am not *supposed* to have a life ever
etc.
