Comments on: Emotional masochism.

By: Passing Stranger

Passing Stranger — Sat, 27 Jan 2007 19:16:33 +0000

First I wondered, how could she do that.

Later, I learn to wonder, how could I do that.

Now, I wonder, what exactly was it I did, and what did I think I was doing. And why.

If you are ashamed, now, of yourself then, you are probably trying to explain yourself, and to avoid repeating your mistakes. To reconsider significant events is not masochistic, it is reasonable and healthy.

By: emily sparkle

emily sparkle — Tue, 19 Dec 2006 20:53:25 +0000

it’s like picking a scab. i do it too.

By: duchess

duchess — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 23:48:35 +0000

I am not sure whether it’s such a bad thing, really. You say how you are able to look at the situation and acknowledge your role honestly. I wonder if that’s because you’ve gone back and read these, so you’ve seen how you’ve changed since then.

In many ways, I wonder if you are going back and reading this as a way of reminding yourself that you are no longer that person, and those people didn’t know who you are, and don’t know who you are, and dammit, you are a good person! A way of self-affirming the person you are *now* – if that makes any sense.

If you are a masochist, I guess I am, too, since I also tend to go back and revisit stuff written from painful moments.

By: Jamie

Jamie — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 05:34:47 +0000

V.,

It is productive *and* good for you! You mentioned how you reacted to your behavior. I am not so sure many people do that. If people did, I think that there would be a lot fewer jerks out there. Way to be meta ;-)

xoxo, J-A-G-G

By: vika

vika — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 04:54:29 +0000

Yes, and there’s no need to block or delete them. I am more bothered by my insistence on going back there than by the existence of the posts/comments themselves.

By: Nikki

Nikki — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 02:50:08 +0000

Oh, gosh. Would this be the one I’m thinking of (that involves me)? I can actually flock or delete those entries, if’n you like.