moods, reflections, re-collection
S.A.D. is kicking my ass this year, but this doesn’t come close to last year’s suck. Of course, I’m also not in crisis mode this winter, but there’s still a lot going on, and it’s good and bad and hard to keep up with, and I’m swimming more than sinking, and that feels good.
Last winter was easily the worst time I’ve yet spent on this planet, but it taught me a lot about my own strengths, and these days I’m remembering the lessons and putting them into practice in completely different contexts. That also feels good.
Today I was… moody; let’s say, it wasn’t full-blown SAD crashing down on me like a storm cloud, there were just things that kept throwing me off-balance. I made it mostly a good day, but couldn’t stop the wild swinging until I started cooking. Only a few minutes into it I felt this weight that I hadn’t even known was there fall away. Happy conclusion, or re-learning, or what have you: cooking is not something I indulge myself in and carve out time for here and there. It’s nothing short of medicine. Remarkable, really.
December 15th, 2008 at 8:37 am
Do you have a plant grow light? A friend of mine has really good luck with her SADD by sitting under that for 1-2 hours per day.
December 15th, 2008 at 10:10 am
Misty – I have a blue-LED box with the right nanometer-age, and use it but not regularly enough, I think. I’m not sure they’re helping beyond ~30min after my 20min session, which is sort of an anti-motivator. Still, I should bring them home and try lying in bed with them in the morning, plus leave them on for longer (which would involve carting back and forth from work, and I’m not sure about that.
I’m also taking vitamin D in supplement form, 2000 I.U. a day. It seems to be helping, and the price tag allows me to be ok with the possibility that this effect is psychosomatic. :)