So, do I have a feed?

My RSS feeds have been (it seems from here) nonfunctional. Just did something that might fix that, so am posting to see whether it’s fixed.

Had an important, difficult, overwhelming weekend. As a result I feel even more groundless than before, but am seeking out more groundlessness. I’ve been afraid of throwing myself headlong into changing my life’s structure; for the most part that fear is no longer entirely paralyzing. It’s difficult but it’s also time to be awake and present.

Buddhists (at least Tibetan Buddhists) seem to believe that it’s precisely groundlessness, not counting on anything in particular and accepting extreme uncertainty, that is the most potentially fertile time in a life. Using various tools (books, lots of thinking, sitting in something approximating meditation) I’ve begun experiencing this fully for, I think, the first time in my life. It’s one of the scariest things I’ve ever done. It’s also liberating.

The thing I’m finding most difficult at the moment is committing to a path that involves other people, but committing to it alone. It happens to be a path that is, for the most part, uncharted waters: there are no social structures in place for it, few precedents, and if it doesn’t work, the consequences are… well, that’s the thing: I don’t know how the worst possible consequences of this path would be different from the worst consequences of a more traditional path. Mostly I don’t think they’d be different at all, and ultimately I’d rather try than not try and wonder whether I could’ve done it. So bring on the fear.

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Edited to add: My newsreader’s feed for Words’ End still isn’t working. Never mind. Ethan to the rescue again. There it is, the feed. Halleluiah.

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5 Responses to “So, do I have a feed?”

  • Ben Brumfield Says:
    November 26th, 2007 at 4:30 pm

    I do wish you’d include the whole post instead of just an excerpt in your feed, or at least give subscribers a choice.

  • Lucian Says:
    November 26th, 2007 at 5:21 pm

    Yup, your rss is working fine!

    Also, I have no idea what you’re talking about. I mean, I can tell it was supposed to be somewhat vague on the specifics, but I can’t even tell what you’re trying to be vague about. But hey! Good luck anyway.

  • Erika Amir Says:
    November 26th, 2007 at 6:45 pm

    The feed just spit out your last three posts to Words’ End (all dated in November). Hopefully we’re not missing too much more than that! Good to see you posting, I’ve missed seeing your words on the internet.

  • vika Says:
    November 27th, 2007 at 2:33 am

    Ben, the feed for my own site that I use in my newsreader is this: http://wordsend.org/feed/ — and to me it presents as full-text. I dislike those excerpt-only feeds myself. What feed reader and OS are you using, and is the feed URL the same as above?

    Lucian, sorry for the cryptic. :) That’s just how it’s going to be for a while. Hopefully, later posts are/will be generalized enough to not be so frustratingly cryptic.

    Erika, you did get them all!

  • Ben Brumfield Says:
    November 27th, 2007 at 10:07 pm

    Looks like my Google Reader subscription is through http://wordsend.org/feed/rss/ . Changing it to remove the /rss fixes the problem nicely.

    Thanks!